The start of a new beginning...

I know you are wondering why I am jumping on this bandwagon they call BLOGGING, but let me explain why..... LOTS of reasons but for one because I think it will keep me accountable. I have said I am going to do this before and I have always messed up and said, "Screw it. I will do it some other time". Well, there is no "some other time" anymore. NOW is the time. I turn 30 in 9 months and I am not getting any younger. Dad died at 48 and at the rate I am at now 36% body fat I will quickly fall into his footsteps. I have seen the Dr... I have seen the cardiologist, my heart is fine and now is the time to get moving.

I remember last summer when Max's employer had their annual Busch Gardens day and we walked into the catered lunch and I thought to myself, "Oh my god I freaking hope that we don't see anyone he knows. I will completely embarass him. I am not what they expect Max should be with I am sure......" I was completely bashing myself and for good reason. I am fat. I am obese by all weight charts and there is no other way to say it. I absolutley do not want to be this way anymore and I can't believe I am about to say the very words that I HATED my mother saying to me but here it goes.... Everyone makes their own choices and I can decide whether or not I will be fat or thin.

My GOAL is to be under 165 lbs by my 30th birthday.
April 27th 2010 I will be -55 lbs healthier than I am right now. I have 9 months and I will do this. My new best friend is Shapes (the gym). However I do find it ironic that I am working out to get healthier but I now have tendonitis in my right foot FROM excercising because I am overweight..... I could use this as an excuse to quit but....Nah. I want to walk into a room and have Max be proud of his little trophy wife because afterall, that is how I picture myself. Not some fat girl who has to shop at a store dedicated to women who are overweight. I am not happy and there are no drugs out there that will ever make me happy with the way I look right now. I am sick of people saying that my personality matches my size and that I am beautiful and look perfect for "me". Well I disagree. I want to match that little cheerleader personality that I think I have. So now starting today, I will be my own cheerleader and make THAT choice to be a healthier, HAPPIER me. So take a look at the before pictures folks because there WILL be an AFTER picture of a BEAUTIFUL, HAPPY, healthy Kristi that is ready to get out of this obese, unhealthy and UNHAPPY body!!